Writer’s block, Reader’s block, honestly She fails to understand them all.
But sometimes She does feel locked, like She can’t get anything right at all.
She talks about determination a lot, the easier it is to say, the harder it gets.
However, She has made a decision not to make this Her lot.
For She fights for all She must get. This doesn’t necessarily She never gats hurt or that She gets all She wants.
She just chooses to love past the hurt and pray that She gets all She needs, not just the wants.
It is hard enough trying to sum up to expectations, having to deal with the backlash of dissuasion.
If only She had a bit more of determination, it would serve as a means of persuasion.
Going through Her journals, She tries to remember who She was at the beginning but it is so much like a story, She starts hoping it’s a fairytale because She cannot have struggled for a tragedy.
It is real, Her life, it is real….
So why does She have to remind herself that all the time.
She still feels blocked, maybe She is! She tells Herself “it really is not that bad, it is a shield from harm”. That someday She is not going to feel it, Freedom from the cage bound by rules.
The biggest scare though is that she is terrified or being free, She feels She needs the rules probably as one to blame for all her limitations.
She begins to wonder if She just might be the problem and not the cage She is being held in.
To others it looks like She’s got it all figured, it’s easier said…
She’s totally confused, trying to find Her way.
Blocked might be the word but She chooses to say She is LOCKED.
LOCKED in LOVE ❤️ Who is looking out for Her.
So when the time comes to get the keys and open the door of Her cage, She’ll trust THE WAY!!!
Much love 😘
