Welcome to the inner workings of her mind, the depths of her heart.
People say there is no authenticity in repurposing the words of others –
but when those words become the carving stones of the reality in which she now resides, can’t we say they are hers as well?
I share this because, as we search the depths of her heart, we are bound to find transforming memories drawn from without:
lessons learned from the pain of others; grief she’s borne because another felt it; the many times her heart was broken when someone else’s heart took a hit; the essays of words she’s held on to, words that were never spoken to her.
All these things empower her in ways she may never fully understand, much less express. Yet at her depth, when all outside influences are stripped away, there lies the person she is most terrified of – the person she largely ignores, not from underestimation but from morbid fear.
She fears the Voice, the Heart, the Drive, the Struggle, the Pain that live there. She fears that the day she lets her speak, she will begin and never stop. She fears that her words will shake cities and bring down mountains that have become the comfort of her cowardice. She fears that when her pain bleeds through there will be no consolation and there she would remain, vulnerable and alone.
Mortified. She is mortified.
No terrorist could ever get this reaction from her; not even an earthquake could evoke this much. Yet there is one who dies with blinding passion and overwhelming zeal — and her abode is not without; rather, she is resident in her very depths.
This is why she is confident she is a daughter of the King: because, given permission to lead, her destination is the domination of territories, territories she would be more comfortable ignoring.
This person is herself.
And so, as Marianne Williamson says: her biggest fear is not that she’s inadequate… her biggest fear is that she is POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE.
Heart to Heart: Powerful beyond Measure
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